10. Did you have a turning point or a certain moment that made you decide to recover? Or was it a decision that happened over a long period of time?
I think that turning point was when my therapist told me she had gotten a call from my doctor. They've been working together for 15+ years, and this was only the second time my therapist ever received a call from the doctor. That's how serious things had gotten. That's how worried my doctor was. I had hit what I thought was rock bottom. It was time to commit or be committed. And I was not willing to be hospitalized. That was out of the question in my mind.
Unfortunately, just a short week later, I landed in the hospital from passing out at work. I had never been so appreciative of being pushed as I was at that moment. Had I not spent the previous week working my @$$ off to bring my intake up, I'd likely have been checked in right then and there.
I think that was the time when I decided to really commit to recovery. From there, though, it has been quite a process. That was just over a year ago. And here I am today. Still working hard every day. But stable for going on nearly five months.