June Blog Challenge Day 15: NOW
Now is so terrifying I can't even begin to describe it. But it's getting better! And it changes, actually. Cause right *now* I am panicking about all the work that has to be done to close up my classroom for the summer, and not a lot of time to do so. This year is more challenging than previous years because construction is being done, which requires a lot more room prep than ever before.
Right now, I'm sad that today is the last day of school with my beloved class. They are such an incredible group, and while I'm always sad when I say goodbye to my class on the last day of school, this year it's even tougher.
Right now, I'm not looking forward to summer as much as I'd like. I thrive on structure and schedule, and without the imposed schedule of the school year... I will struggle.
Sometimes, the moments are really quite nice. Those moments where I wish *now* would never end. The further I get into recovery, the more those moments appear. I do like it when they happen, because it makes now a lot less scary.
Ironically, I really do try to take things one day at a time, one step at a time, one task at a time, sometimes, one bite at a time. That helps me live in the now a bit better.
Ok, well, maybe I'm getting a bit better at now, I just don't like it... yet!
Prompt: Do you know how to live in the now? Is this something you are trying to learn? Is now scary? Freeing? Is now a hard concept for you?