June Blog Challenge Day 11: FORCE
For the first time in this challenge, no inspiration has struck me surrounding this word. Force. I feel like I'm going to have to force this post to happen!
Hmmm.... How do a few quotes to start off sound? Good? Good.
Force is all-conquering, but its victories
are short lived. -- Abraham Lincoln
This quote makes a lot of sense to me. It reminds me of the idea of forcing a square peg into a round hole. Something that hits home for me. All my life I feel like I've been forced into a world in which I don't fit.
I was not designed to be forced. I will breathe after my own
fashion. Let us see who is the strongest. -- Henry David Thoreau
I don't think I'm strong. I think I've been forced to live inside my head for so long, it's actually made me a target for the rest of the world. My insecurities used to be well masked by ed... not so much these days. In some ways that's a good thing, I'm getting stronger than my ed. In other ways, it's kind of scary starting to "breathe after my own fashion."
Whether I fail or succeed shall be no man's doing
but my own. I am the force. -- Elaine Maxwell
This quote is somewhat powerful. It seems to say that I can choose to fail, or I can choose to succeed. It's all up to me. The scary thing is that sometimes I think I prefer failure over success, if only because it's more familiar.
Peace cannot be kept by force; it can only be achieved
by understanding. -- Albert Einstein
I guess this is a good summary of force. Any time I've been forced into anything, I never seem to be able to understand the hows and whys of the situation. I'm a big understander - I have to know what's going on, what's expected, why it's important, and so on, in order to be fully present in the situation. Maybe that's why I struggled so much over the past few years - my focus was on ed, and not on understanding the situations at hand. No peace whatsoever.
(Hmm... guess I found some words after all. Interesting word choice, that's for sure!)
Prompt: Does this word have negative connotations for you? Or does it seem powerful in a good way? Do you consider yourself a force? Is your eating disorder a force? Was it? There is no end to the ways in which this word can be interpreted.