Showing posts with label now. Show all posts
Showing posts with label now. Show all posts

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Professionally Developed

I work with some amazing people.  Professional, put together, masters of their craft.  People that I look at and think "wow, I kinda wish I could have their lives for a little while, and see how the other half lives......"  I often feel less than, just because they are all married (or engaged) and have families (or are just starting their families) and have very rich and wonderful lives outside of work.  In other words, their highlight reels are pretty spectacular.

And mine isn't.

Except for one area.  I found it quite shocking that my "highlight reel" actually brought out the behind-the-scenes struggle in my colleagues.  See, my highlight reel is very limited.  It actually only encompasses one skill area.  That's it.  I don't have the family.  I don't have the relationship.  I don't have the outside-of-work-amazing-life.  But I do have one talent, that I now know brings out insecurities in others.  Which is something I hate to do, make someone feel insecure.  And today, more than ever, that was made clear to me.

Which is why this quote came to mind.  I know I need to really work hard to stop looking at the highlight reel, the "public persona" of my colleagues.  Because when I do that, I feel like an ant surrounded by elephants - the smallest, most insignificant creature of the bunch.  Hopefully this new-found information will help me balance out a little bit more, and be less insecure about what they have that I don't, and instead, focus on sharing what I can......  After all, we all have something to offer, whether we're behind the camera or running the show.

Monday, June 18, 2012

Two Weeks

My nutritionist, who has been on maternity leave for three months and three weeks, will be back in TWO weeks.  In exactly two weeks, I'll be getting ready to head out to my appointment to see her.  In exactly two weeks.... I can't believe I've nearly made it through her leave!

I'm SO excited....  I've never been in a position where I missed someone like this before.  Ironically, I'm actually kinda nervous, too...

But I still can't wait.  Two more weeks!



Friday, June 15, 2012

Arielle's Word-of-the-Day: NOW

June Blog Challenge Day 15: NOW

Now is so terrifying I can't even begin to describe it.  But it's getting better!  And it changes, actually.  Cause right *now* I am panicking about all the work that has to be done to close up my classroom for the summer, and not a lot of time to do so.  This year is more challenging than previous years because construction is being done, which requires a lot more room prep than ever before.

Right now, I'm sad that today is the last day of school with my beloved class.  They are such an incredible group, and while I'm always sad when I say goodbye to my class on the last day of school, this year it's even tougher.

Right now, I'm not looking forward to summer as much as I'd like.  I thrive on structure and schedule, and without the imposed schedule of the school year... I will struggle.

However.

Sometimes, the moments are really quite nice.  Those moments where I wish *now* would never end.  The further I get into recovery, the more those moments appear.  I do like it when they happen, because it makes now a lot less scary.

Ironically, I really do try to take things one day at a time, one step at a time, one task at a time, sometimes, one bite at a time.  That helps me live in the now a bit better.

Ok, well, maybe I'm getting a bit better at now, I just don't like it... yet!


Prompt: Do you know how to live in the now? Is this something you are trying to learn? Is now scary? Freeing? Is now a hard concept for you?