Friday, November 16, 2012
Part of recovery has meant trying things that I am not comfortable with. It's meant stretching out of my comfort zone on so many occasions. It's meant doing what feels impossible. It's meant doctor's appointments and therapy appointments and dietitian appointments that are painful as painful gets.
But nothing hurts as much as having to pretend everything is fine, even though everyone around you knows it's not. Pretending that the announcement that was just made isn't going to cause a major recovery setback. Pretending that you're going to be just fine, when inside, you're ready to give up, and everyone around you is watching for your reaction.
I've gotten quite good at acting over the years, it's part of my job, and it's usually useful. I am so appreciative that today all that practice acting paid off.