Week 18: Best Recovery Advice

The best recovery advice I've been given?  Simple.

You CAN do this.  Take one bite at a time.

It sounds trite and condescending.  But it isn't.  Because unless I eat, my brain will never be able to be coherent enough to process the other side of ed, the mental side.  I need to nourish my body so that I can work on recovering my mind.

How am I able to do that?

I don't do it for me.  I don't eat for myself.  I eat because I know if I don't, my team will not be able to help me, and I'll lose them.  I can't lose them.  They are the reason, at least for now, that I am working my @$$ off to eat and to beat this "issue."

More helpful words from my team, who have been my constant cheerleaders and guides on this journey...

Acceptance is the hardest part.  When you do- then you know who and what you are fighting. (8/3/11)

The emotions are there because you need to move forward dealing with them instead of using ED to handle things.  You have the skills, ability intelligence and drive to win this battle.  Don't quit. (11/1/11)

Week 18: Affirmations

Affirmations.  Yuck.  I find them so silly.  I mean, I feel ridiculous talking to myself, telling myself things I don't believe.  It sounds way to hokey for me.

On the other hand, I don't seem to find it silly when I talk to myself other times, like when I get mad at myself for making a mistake.  Or when I beat myself up mentally because of some silly thing.

I can talk to myself when I am beating the crap out of me, but I can't talk to myself positively?  Great.  How bass-akward is that?!

(A little game for you... I do believe one of the above affirmations to be true, 

at least for me, but I believe the other one to be false, at least for me.  Can you figure out which is which?