Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Challenge 1, Part 1: Self Care
This is a really challenging topic for me because in all honesty, I suck in the self-care department, and in the self-soothing department? I'm even worse! The good news is that there's no where to go but up and there is lots of room for improvement!
There's this little thing called self-worth that gets in my way. It's something I am working on daily, and it is so not easy. However, I firmly believe that once I see myself as deserving of care, from myself or anyone, I will be better able to care for myself. It's a really odd paradox in my mind - I'm not worthy enough for anyone to care about, yet, unless I care about myself, no one else can really do it for me.
Mentally and emotionally, I know that I have gaps in my development in this department, and I'm working hard to learn the things I skipped over in an effort to better meet my own needs. It is mentally exhausting right now because everything, from assembling a balanced meal, to building basic care routines, everything is a huge effort! Things that many people do without thought, I am still working my way through, step by step, inch by inch, and having to think consciously about every single step along the way. Little by little I'll learn, and it'll get easier a little at a time, at least I hope it does, because the amount of thought and effort put into EVERYthing I do to take care of myself is exhausting!
One of my fellow bloggers has something she calls a Bliss List. Take a peek at her list, it's really quite inspiring, yet full of simple things that one can do to take care of themselves. I'm starting my own Bliss List and it has not been an easy task, because self-care is not an easy task. I'll get there. One day at a time, of course!