Sunday, November 11, 2012
Yeah, I'm still depressed. But I spent a few hours with a true friend today, one of the few that I have. And somehow, while we were walking to lunch in this unseasonably warm weather, the darkness temporarily released it's hold on me and I was able to enjoy our time together. While I was forcing myself to laugh at first, so as not to rain on the beautiful weather, after a while, it wasn't an effort.
Smiles were harder. Somehow, as good of a job as I thought I was doing in keeping things light and happy, she knew. She commented on how happy I seemed, and wondered if it was genuine.... she knew.... but being that special soul that she is, she understood. And when we said goodbye, that little extra squeeze? That was the best medicine out there.
Only a true friend sees the pain through the mask and loves you anyway....