Yeah, I'm still depressed. But I spent a few hours with a true friend today, one of the few that I have. And somehow, while we were walking to lunch in this unseasonably warm weather, the darkness temporarily released it's hold on me and I was able to enjoy our time together. While I was forcing myself to laugh at first, so as not to rain on the beautiful weather, after a while, it wasn't an effort.
Smiles were harder. Somehow, as good of a job as I thought I was doing in keeping things light and happy, she knew. She commented on how happy I seemed, and wondered if it was genuine.... she knew.... but being that special soul that she is, she understood. And when we said goodbye, that little extra squeeze? That was the best medicine out there.
Only a true friend sees the pain through the mask and loves you anyway....
Friends like this are so special and rare. I am glad you have one. I will be praying for you and checking back to read more of your story.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the comment, for the prayers, and for the validation that special friends are just that- special. I hope you enjoy my blog, it's been quite a powerful and growth-filled journey!
DeleteI'm praying for you as well. I too am glad you have a friend like that ... they're so very precious. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for the prayers Larissa, I can use them. It's been a rough go of things for the last few weeks, but there is always a light at the end, right?
DeleteI love this post. I typically think about recovery as when you've been able to completely overcome the pain and anguish that you feel but you've done such a great way of visualizing it for me...it's about moving forward one small step at a time and enjoying the small and significant victories. Again, such an inspiring post. Thank you for sharing!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the comment and feedback Denise. It's so easy to be overwhelmed by all the "next steps" out there. It's just as hard to stick with one step at a time, too. I am very appreciative that I have people that help me remember to celebrate the little moments, like Sunday, so I don't get caught up in the rush!
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