365 Days of Giving Thanks - Year 2

Day 171 - Thursday 5/8/14 - Quite pleased with the way a lesson went today, one I wasn't sure how it would go, making the fact that it went super, even better.

Day 170 - Wednesday 5/7/14 - So glad that my parents friends joined us for dinner.  My parents are always better behaved when they are there, which made dinner more peaceful for me.

Day 169 - Tuesday 5/6/14 - Sending today's appreciation to our school's PTA for the delish teacher appreciation luncheon they provided today!

Day 168 - Monday 5/5/14 - Had a comical exchange with a complete stranger today.  Really made me laugh.  Nice after a lousy day.

Day 167 - Sunday 5/4/14 - Grateful for a day of nothing.  After the past month, I really needed it.

Day 166 - Saturday 5/3/14 - Had a great day of learning today with my BFF!  Loved the networking and connections we both made!

Day 165 - Friday 5/2/14 - Happy the week from he!! is over.........

365 Days of Giving Thanks - Year 2

Day 164 - Thursday 5/1/14 - Thankful that the last six weeks of hard work paid off - my class did an incredible job with their performance tonight!

Day 163 - Wednesday 4/30/14 - Lovely to see so many people gathering together to celebrate the happier times of a life cut way too short.

Day 162 - Tuesday 4/29/14 - Enjoyed a lovely evening watching a former student shine in her element.  Made me feel old.

Day 161 - Monday 4/28/14 - Appreciating a moment of "adulthood" in that today I completed a challenging task that would have sent me into misery before, successfully today.  I asked for help from the designated person and it worked!

Day 160 - Sunday 4/27/14 - Thankful for the Pup, especially on a day like today, for if I didn't have the Pup, I'd not have gotten out of bed.

Day 159 - Saturday 4/26/14 - Special treat lunch with a special friend made today special.

Day 158 - Friday 4/25/14 - LOVED seeing like six former students this afternoon! Made my week!

Sketches In Stillness

There is so much sadness in the world these days.  So much hatred, negativity, judgement, cruelty, ignorance......... I can't watch the news or read the paper as sit depresses me and makes me feel so anxious with all the "bad" news that is out there.

But everything *will* be alright..... right?

Week 17: Goals

I have such mixed feelings about goals.  On the one hand, they're awesome!  I love being able to set a goal and make a list of steps to help accomplish it.  Crossing off each item on the list gives such a satisfying feeling, making reaching the goal all the more gratifying!

On the other hand...... sometimes my life is too chaotic for goals.  Lists overwhelm me.  I set goals and watch them fly by with little to no dent made in achieving them.  Sometimes my goals feel ridiculous, like getting out of bed, or getting into the shower. 

When you're dealing with an eating disorder, or depression, or anxiety, or any other invisible challenges, goals can feel impossibly painful, adding to the suffering.  Thankfully, they can also feel incredibly uplifting, bringing brightness through the clouds.

Right now, I'm working on eating.  Again.  Still.  Whatever.  I have been struggling a lot with getting in the appropriate types of foods, and getting enough of them at that.  It's not fun.  I feel like I've taken ten steps back in my recovery, even though my team would disagree.  I'm living the "one day at a time" mindset, or at least I'm trying to, in all areas of my life.

Sorry fellow readers, I'm kinda feeling stuck right now.  If I wrote this post in a month, it might be totally different.  In fact, I just might do that!

Saturday Smiles

Thank you, Shirt Woot, for another gem!

365 Days of Giving Thanks - Year 2

Day 157 - Thursday 4/24/14 - Super, super happy to see the progress my students have made this year, and even kinda happy to see the progress I've made, too......

Day 156 - Wednesday 4/23/14 - Kinda shocked to see that all this therapy work is making a noticeable difference, as evident by my response to a nasty attack from a colleague.  Instead of fleeing the situation, I waited it out and survived!

Day 155 - Tuesday 4/22/14 - Happy to see how much progress my class is making on their final projects!

Day 154 - Monday 4/21/14 - My therapist said I should be quite proud of the way I handled my family during the three-week visit that ended today.  Time to learn how to be proud, I suppose.....

Day 153 - Sunday 4/20/14 - Saw my first firefly tonight!  Big smile!

Day 152 - Saturday 4/19/14 - Enjoyed a beautiful day at the ballpark, my first of the year!

Day 151 - Friday 4/18/14 - Grateful for the sunshine that wrapped up the day, it made for a beautiful evening walk with the Pup.