Perfection Returns

I'm back.  And battling a perfection complex.  Among other things.  

But I'm back, despite myself, I'm back.

Challenge 5, Part 1: The Ideal Body

I believe the ideal body is a healthy one.  And I'm learning that healthy really does come at any size.  Contrarily, so does unhealthiness.  I know someone who is absolutely tiny (does not have an ED) and eats a ton, but is considered unhealthy and malnourished.  On the flip side, I know someone who is obese, and is also considered malnourished.  It just goes to show that you really can't tell what is happening inside people based on an outward appearance.

Which is why I now believe that the ideal body is a healthy one.  Period.

And my body is not healthy.  In so many ways.... it is much healthier than it has been in years!  I've made a lot of progress in the health department.  But I still have a long way to go.  It's as if some areas have grown healthier, while others have deteriorated.  As if the original areas of disease were covering other ailments, which they probably were.

The good news?  (Yes, I try to always have good news!)  It is possible for me, and for everyone else, to become healthy.  Yes, there are always exceptions, but that is a whole different discussion that I'm not opening right now.  In general, EVERYbody can get healthy.  It takes determination, motivation, and a willingness to be uncomfortable.  But it IS possible.  It is up to you, up to me, whether we want to do the work to get that "ideal" body.  To be honest, sometimes I don't think I want to do the work it takes to get and be healthy.  Thankfully, my team won't let me fall too far, and eventually I come to my senses and realize that healthy is exactly how I want my body to be.

Arielle's Word-of-the-Day: PERFECT

June Blog Challenge Day 13: PERFECT

It's Not Perfect But It's Me

Performed by Johnny Pacar and Josie Loren

ABC Family's Make It or Break It

I'm done holding back

I've dropped the act

I was keeping it together for too long

I'm through running scared
from what's in there

It's not perfect, but it's me.

If I wanna cry, I'll cry

You will see the tears in my eyes

If I wanna leave, I'll go

If I am hurting now

You'll know, you'll know

You'll know

I'll try, I was dying just to live a lie

Hopelessly floating, like a balloon

I was running out of air too soon

If we are honest, we could be honest

I could be happy, 

I could be good enough for me

I really don't have much to say about perfect.  It has such negative connotations for me I can't yet speak about it well.  However, there are two songs that I absolutely cling to for words when I need to explain.  The above song is my favorite, and it's a relatively unknown song.  In fact, the only place I found it was a clip someone put up on YouTube, patched together from the episode of Make It or Break It in which the song was heard.  I have yet to find a complete version anywhere, and believe me, I've searched!  The title of the song is so motivating - It's Not Perfect, But It's Me.  I want to get to the place where I can say that, and mean it.

The other song?  You're probably more familiar with it.  When I first heard P!nk's Perfect (I prefer the clean version, thank you very much!) I was floored that someone could pull thoughts out of my head so cleanly.  But she did.  And while these days, the song doesn't invoke the strong emotional reaction it did when I first heard it, it still speaks to me. 

Prompt: Does this word have positive feelings attached to it or negative ones? Do you feel the same way about this word as you used to? What does perfect mean to you? To other people? Does “perfect” even exist? Maybe there is a poem that expresses this best for you, maybe a quote, an image, etc.