You might remember that a little over a year ago, I was in complete agony over my dietitian's maternity leave. Actually, agony doesn't quite describe it. More like, an unbearably intolerably excruciating inner ache. Not gonna revisit that, but you can read more if you want.
Anyway. Back to yesterday. As I was heading for my visit with my dietitian, it hit me that it was three weeks since I last saw her. Three weeks. Three, rather chaotic, exhausting, long, weeks. Three trying, frustrating, agonizing weeks. But those three weeks were missing one thing.
Three weeks. A few months ago, just the idea of going three weeks between appointments would have brought about crippling anxiety. So you'd think that upon seeing my dietitian yesterday, for the first time in three weeks, I'd have that old sense of desperation and longing hanging around my neck.
Not the case. Yes, I am just as surprised as you are. There was no agonizing longing, no desperate sense of need. There was just a sense of contentment in seeing my dietitian for the first time in three, long and crazy weeks.
I believe that I've finally arrived at what the psychology world calls "secure attachment." This type of attachment is what I feel to be the healthiest, and yet, it's one I've experienced the least. I have to admit, I was very excited to see my dietitian yesterday, and equally excited to share with her the news - that I now finally know that she's going to always be there for me, whether it's been days, weeks, or months between our visits.
Feels pretty darn good, if you ask me.