This. This is where I am right now. I didn't realize how much I do this, how much I look at people's outsides and compare it with my insides. How much I look at people's "shared successes" and compare them to my private flaws.
I can walk through the mall, glimpse someone who looks like they have all their stuff together - they are fit, they look amazing, they've got a friend or friends with them, they're laughing or talking. They look like what I wish I had.
Except. Except I don't have a clue what happens in the rest of their world. For all I know, their behind the scenes is just as messed up as mine.
I struggle to accept my behind-the-scene life as ok. If I can finally, finally stop comparing what goes on in my head, and behind closed doors of my home, with what I see in everyone else? Wow.
This is so true, I'd never seen it like this.
ReplyDeleteThank you, you always get me thinking.
I just wanted to say that you are making a difference with this blog, at least in me.
I am recovering and trying to stay positive and optimistic and in the recovery lane and the things you write, a lot of the time, get me thinking and keep me true when I'm finding it a bit hard. This has happened on more than one occasion and I just wanted to say thank you.
Take care my dear, I hope you are having a good day
Mandy xx
Isn't it crazy how we do this kind of thinking? Taking things at face value without question, though taking ourselves for a crazy thrashing instead? I'm glad you're finding some support in my words, I am giving back as so many gave to me when I began my recovery journey. I appreciate your comments Mandy! xoxo
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