I'd like to say that recovery has been going well.
I'd like to say that I've mastered meal planning.
I'd like to say that I'm consistently meeting my calorie goals.
I'd like to say that I'm incorporating a variety of foods into my meals.
I'd like to say that I'm getting adequate nutrition.
But I'm not.
I'm in a bit of a rocky patch.
I'm struggling with the basics.
I'm trying my hardest.
Things just aren't happening.
Yet.
Keep hanging on ... specifically to that "yet."
ReplyDeleteYou're working incredibly hard. I know you are.
Hang in there. I am struggling too (though my struggles are different) and your honesty is encouraging to me. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm with you on this one... I feel like my mind is there but the behaviours just aren't following and it's really frustrating! My therapist challenged me during our last session on deciding what I really want. It was probably a push I need and yet it kind of made me feel bad about everything too. It's hard for me to balance being kind to myself with just letting myself keep going down this path. Argh - I don't want to lose more of my life to this disorder. I need to keep reminding myself of that. I hope you find something that inspires you too - life is more than our eating disorders!
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