The person I really need to forgive is myself. I am a pretty mean person when it comes to self-talk. Try as I might, when it comes down to it, I'm not my biggest fan. I am working on that, though. It isn't helpful when I spend my day verbally attacking myself. The reality of it is that I too, am doing the best that I can with what I have. Thankfully, I'm working on changing the way I treat myself, and it is so not easy. As much as I wish my therapist had a magic wand and could *poof* make nicer thoughts come out of my brain, she can't. What she can do is help me learn to be more kind and compassionate toward myself. And that seems like it's going to take more than forgiveness. It's going to take a miracle.
We may not know how to forgive, and we may not want
to forgive; but the very fact we say we are willing to
forgive begins the healing practice. -- Louise Hay