There are a whole mess of things that I think contributed to my eating disorder. As my dietitian says, some people are wired differently and are more susceptible to a diet getting dangerous. I elaborated more in this post about my history and when my eating disordered behaviors began.....
I actually went to a nutritionist in the beginning of university, but that so did not work. I've been in and out of therapy since I was 16, which was sometimes helpful, sometimes not. So I guess you could say I've been trying to work through these issues for much of my life.
Except the eating disorder.... I was in denial for 20 years that I had a problem with food.... and it wasn't till my current therapist, who convinced me to see a dietitian, to give it another try, if only to learn healthier eating habits (mine sucked.) Turns out, she was thinking ED well before I actually got the "official" diagnosis. Steps I'm taking now to work through this? Therapy multiple times a week. Regular sessions with my dietitian. And recently, the addition of some behavioral therapy as well. It is hard, painful work looking back into the painful past.... but it will make moving forward all the more powerful when I finally come to terms with and move through my history once and for all.....
I love seeing this. It takes deep strength to reach out for what one needs.
ReplyDeleteStrength comes in many forms... sometimes it comes in positive words from friends :) Funny thing is, you don't realize how hard you're working to be independent, until you have the help you need....
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