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Sunday, November 11, 2012

True Friendship

Today was the first Sunday in months that I actually smiled.  It was the first Sunday I got out of my pajamas.  The first Sunday that I actually left the house.  The first Sunday that I didn't spend the day hiding in my bedroom.

Yeah, I'm still depressed.  But I spent a few hours with a true friend today, one of the few that I have.  And somehow, while we were walking to lunch in this unseasonably warm weather, the darkness temporarily released it's hold on me and I was able to enjoy our time together.  While I was forcing myself to laugh at first, so as not to rain on the beautiful weather, after a while, it wasn't an effort.  

Smiles were harder.  Somehow, as good of a job as I thought I was doing in keeping things light and happy, she knew.  She commented on how happy I seemed, and wondered if it was genuine.... she knew.... but being that special soul that she is, she understood.  And when we said goodbye, that little extra squeeze?  That was the best medicine out there.

Only a true friend sees the pain through the mask and loves you anyway....

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6 comments:

  1. Tamara TiptonNovember 11, 2012 at 7:27 PM

    Friends like this are so special and rare. I am glad you have one. I will be praying for you and checking back to read more of your story.

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    1. UnknownNovember 11, 2012 at 9:18 PM

      Thanks for the comment, for the prayers, and for the validation that special friends are just that- special. I hope you enjoy my blog, it's been quite a powerful and growth-filled journey!

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  2. Larissa T.November 11, 2012 at 8:05 PM

    I'm praying for you as well. I too am glad you have a friend like that ... they're so very precious. :)

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    1. UnknownNovember 11, 2012 at 9:18 PM

      Thanks for the prayers Larissa, I can use them. It's been a rough go of things for the last few weeks, but there is always a light at the end, right?

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  3. Denise GreenawayNovember 12, 2012 at 9:43 AM

    I love this post. I typically think about recovery as when you've been able to completely overcome the pain and anguish that you feel but you've done such a great way of visualizing it for me...it's about moving forward one small step at a time and enjoying the small and significant victories. Again, such an inspiring post. Thank you for sharing!

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    1. UnknownNovember 12, 2012 at 8:48 PM

      Thanks for the comment and feedback Denise. It's so easy to be overwhelmed by all the "next steps" out there. It's just as hard to stick with one step at a time, too. I am very appreciative that I have people that help me remember to celebrate the little moments, like Sunday, so I don't get caught up in the rush!

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